I started this blog to popularize Chinese Opera in English, and in the beginning my intention was to remain neutral and provide info about Chinese Opera in general, write short biographies about performers, dig up reliable and useful links, stuff like that, but nowadays I’m so bitchy, snappy and picky that I had to go through posts and remove a few very personal remarks. I read back my blog entries and comments and I see that I stress my opinions too violently, possibly hurting people.
Please forgive me all this. My way of thinking is in a major change right now, it’s not a sudden twist, better the climax of a slow and gradual process.
I got hooked by Beijing Opera suddenly in my adulthood, and entered the world of Chinese Opera with an initial set of preferences that changed with time. I felt that the deeper I dig, the more I see that I’m just scratching the surface, and by discovering too many things in an almost torturous pace, I didn’t let myself enough time to digest and synthesize everything peacefully. Illusions broke, idols fell, priorities dwindled to nothing. At least my solid obsession with the art and legacy of Zhou Xinfang, Ma Lianliang, Li Shaochun, Zhang Junqiu, Ye Shenglan remained unchanged.
I read about other people’s similar experiences, and got a bit consoled. It’s the well-known screenplay, you start to consider different aspects as important than before, adopt a different set of values, your taste changes, you can’t control it. But sooner or later everything will fall into place.